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  • Writer's pictureD'Vorah Meijer

G-d And What Only G-d Can Do!

The hardest thing to do between the storm and the coming sunshine is, to not deny the situation in the now moment, but at the other hand believing firmly in the ultimate goal.

~~ Mamme D’Vorah

Yochanan and I are married 32 years and we know each other 33 years. We have been through much. I saw death into the eyes many times. And Yochanan had a near death experience too.

If I should share what we have experienced in the past 33 years, I have to write a new book. But I do want to share, how the STONE that lies before each of us, "before our heart", has been taken away.

Today I went through a deep spiritual experience. I have been sitting at HIS feet for hours. It has been such a precious time, that I keep it for myself.

I only want to share this; Born and raised as a Christian, I have discovered my Jewish roots approximately 20 years ago, - forced conversions in the bloodline and family secrets have caused this- because it was HIS time to first take me HOME spiritually before we can make Aliyah.

For years I had Yerushalayim on my profile because it is in my heart, and it is about my Homeland. But as I learned step by step that also this deep wish, is depending on HIS perfect time, I changed it back to the place we are living now.

At first I almost denied that I believe in both books, Torah Tanakh* and Brit'Chadashah. Because I did not want to hurt my people. And of course, I also wanted to be accepted by them.

*Tanakh is the Jewish name for the Hebrew Scriptures, what Christians call the Old Testament. The word itself is an acronym standing for three words: Torah (the Pentateuch), Nevi’im (Prophets, pronounced n’-vee-eem), and Ketuvim (Writings, pronounced k’-tu-veem).

But the journey we took, was led by the G-d Of Avraham Yitzchak and Yaakov, Who is ONE G-d. I cannot deny HIM, HE IS THE SAME in BOTH BOOKS.

I don't call myself Christian or Messianic or anything. I am like Enoch*, a little candlestick, fixed on the foot. The foot of the Menorah represents HIM! And we, as candlesticks, are ONE with HIM and therefore also united with each other!

Enoch means: Inaugurated, Trained *Etymology From the root חנך (hanak), to inaugurate or train. Related names Via חנך (hanak): Hacaliah, Hanoch, Hanukkah.

It has been a long and deep journey, and the most difficult part has been, the time where I stood alone. No one could help me, in what I experienced and went through. G-d wanted me to lean upon HIM only.

So, instead of two “ Houses” Jew and Christian, I walked with HIM, Instead of my earthly husband, Yochanan, my LORD became my heavenly Husband, who spoke and still speaks to me so clearly that it is impossible to deny HIM. All the sudden healings, HE gave me, are nothing in comparing with the sudden end of this journey which is called “dying to self.”

Our Jewish Marriage. G-d wanted me to add it here as it presents the BRIDEGROOM and HIS Bride in the article.

Our Jewish Marriage which is now representing THE BRIDEGROOM and HIS Bride in this article.

There was a moment when HE said: “What I Am about to do, you will not understand, but you need to trust Me.”

Within one week my blooming ministry was gone, my friends were gone, everything was gone!

And then later on, He said:

" I took My Beloved disciple Yochanan or John, with Me close to the cross, but I Am going to take you BEHIND the cross. The so called three dark days, to experience the darkness and dark powers and to learn to only, ONLY lean upon ME!"

From that moment on, till now, it is been like sitting in a “Hully Gully” Like many other attraction types, the name is derived from a dance, in this case the Hully Gully dance of the same name.

Learning to dance with the LOVER of our soul, is quite an experience. The only thing He is asking to stand on HIS feet, and then lean, eyes closed leaning in HIS arms, and just trust!

But there came a time when the Hully Gully turned into a rollercoaster. Cancer, burst appendix, stroke, it didn't stop! He always healed me suddenly, and in 1 act. But instead of people believing it, they said, "She didn't have cancer, it just can't." While I weighed 38 kilos, and you could tell by my eyes and skin that I was dying. I still have my testimony. You can get it if you want.

But He also taught me that there comes an end to this journey.

And I have experienced in the Spirit, how the stone was rolled away.

As happened to Lazarus, when HE spoke with a loud voice:

"Lazarus come out!"

It has been such a powerful experience, that I hardly can find the words to explain it. My entire life has been filled with heartache, grief, heartbreak, sadness, loss, sickness, loneliness, and so on.

If I compare LIFE to a box of candy's, then I have tasted almost every candy that can be offered to us. And at best, I tasted a little of the "sweet" that was offered to me.

Until now! In which I experienced the stone being rolled away from my grave (The life in the flesh), and I heard it said, what is written in this Tehillim:

Psalm 45 10-13 “Bride of the king, listen carefully to me. Forget your own people and your father’s family. 11 The king is your husband, so do what he desires. 12 All of the richest people from the city of Tyre will try to influence you 13 with precious treasures.”

Thus, saith the LORD:

“Dance, My bride. Dance, daughter of Tziyon, the dance of liberty.

Dance, My daughter, Dance.

Drop those bandages. Come out of your hiding place. I AM is calling you by your name! Stand-Up! Stand-Up. I will increase (promote) you. Dance. Dance the dance of liberty. Take of the bandages. The smell of myrrh is filling the room. Your beauty may be seen. Stand up, Lazarus. Stand up, daughter of Zion. Stand up. The light will come over you. Dance the dance of liberty. I AM is blowing. I AM is blowing over you with the wind of My Spirit. Come! Stand up. Stand up . Stand up. I AM is calling you! Dance, My love. Dance your dance of freedom.”

If there is anyone who thinks “ Is it true? Will the dying of self-process come to an end?”

I invite you to read this short study the LORD gave me:

There are many of HIS children who think suffering is what the Lord wants from us.

At the other hand there are those who share the prosperity gospel as if suffering is a curse and HIS true children will never ever suffer.

Abba showed me the balance!

There is a time where we need to come to the end of self and because of our hardened hearts, He needs to crush the flesh like crushing an olive to get the oil. It is the meaning of the Hebrew word Gethsemane: crushing of olives. He showed me Isaiah 28 to make some things clear. I give all honor and glory to my King and Savior.

The historical background of Chapters 28-33 is the threat that Assyria posed to Israel and Judah. The elements guilt, judgment, punishment, and salvation keep coming back. Accusations and disaster announcements are interspersed with promises of hope and salvation.

In that day the Lord Almighty will be a glorious crown, a beautiful wreath for the remnant of his people. He will be a spirit of justice to the one who sits in judgment, a source of strength to those who turn back the battle at the gate.

But the prophets and priests in Yerushalayim, appointed to lead the people of G-d, are under the influence of drink rather than the Holy Spirit of G-d. They make fun of Isaiah by accusing him of expressing gibberish.

But because they are drunk, they no longer hear what G-d has to say through Isaiah. Now tell me who speaks gibberish here? (Drunk can also represent for us now, that we are under the influence of worldly thinking)

And these also stagger from wine and reel from beer: Priests and prophets stagger from beer and are befuddled with wine; they reel from beer, they stagger when seeing visions, they stumble when rendering decisions. 8 All the tables are covered with vomit and there is not a spot without filth.

9 “Who is it he is trying to teach? To whom is he explaining his message? To children weaned from their milk to those just taken from the breast? 10 For it is: Do this, do that, a rule for this, a rule for that [a]; a little here, a little there.” 11 Very well then, with foreign lips and strange tongues G-d will speak to this people, 12 to whom he said, “This is the resting place, let the weary rest”; and “This is the place of repose”— but they would not listen. 13 So then, the word of the Lord to them will become: Do this, do that, a rule for this, a rule for that; a little here, a little there— so that as they go, they will fall backward; they will be injured, snared, and captured.

Because they do not listen to G-d's salvation message given in HIS LOVE it sounds to them and into their ears as a package of rules!

Therefore, hear the word of the Lord, you scoffers who rule this people in Jerusalem. 15 You boast, “We have entered into a covenant with death, with the realm of the dead we have made an agreement. When an overwhelming scourge sweeps by, it cannot touch us, for we have made a lie our refuge and falsehood [b] our hiding place.”

So, this is what the Sovereign Lord says:

“See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be stricken with panic. 17 I will make justice the measuring line and righteousness the plumb line; hail will sweep away your refuge, the lie, and water will overflow your hiding place. 18 Your covenant with death will be annulled; your agreement with the realm of the dead will not stand. When the overwhelming scourge sweeps by, you will be beaten down by it. 19 As often as it comes it will carry you away; morning after morning, by day and by night, it will sweep through.”

The understanding of this message will bring sheer terror. 20 The bed is too short to stretch out on, the blanket too narrow to wrap around you. 21 The Lord will rise up as he did at Mount Perazim, he will rouse himself as in the Valley of Gibeon— to do his work, his strange work, and perform his task, his alien task. 22 Now stop your mocking, or your chains will become heavier; the Lord, the Lord Almighty, has told me of the destruction decreed against the whole land.

And then the Lord gives a message which will explain that He will not continue forever with the cleansing and purifying and pruning! Let me explain it with great thanks and all honor to the Lord! Blessed be HIS Name!

Listen and hear my voice; pay attention and hear what I say. When a farmer plows for planting, does he plow continually? Does he keep on breaking up and working the soil? When he has leveled the surface, does he not sow caraway and scatter cumin? Does he not plant wheat in its place, [c] barley in its plot, [d] and spelt in its field? His God instructs him and teaches him the right way.

We need to listen to HIS voice to gain wisdom and know what we need to do!

Caraway is not threshed with a sledge, nor is the wheel of a cart rolled over cumin; caraway is beaten out with a rod, and cumin with a stick. The difference between stick and rod is that a stick is a small, thin branch from a tree or bush; While a rod is a straight, round stick, shaft, bar, cane, or staff.

This points out the difference between our calling our task our anointing! The higher the task and calling the deeper and longer will your desert period be. (More painful using the rod than using the stick) Joseph's beard was shaved before he met the Pharaoh. Beard in this story represents authority. Joseph needed to learn to depend on his G-d only! So, no matter the name fame and wealth his first love would always be his G-d!

Grain must be ground to make bread; so, one does not go on threshing it forever. The wheels of a threshing cart may be rolled over it, but one does not use horses to grind grain. All this also comes from Adonai Tzva’ot, Tza-va (צבא) is the word for army – Lord of Hosts, whose plan is wonderful, whose wisdom is magnificent.

Our Lord is baking a bread which He will give to the world as HIS wisdom and solution for all problems. We are that bread. A company of His children who came to the end of self and live a crucified life.

The Sons of G-d (Male and Female) who will come visible soon, are the brothers from Jesus (when He walked on earth as a man. Listening to HIS Father and calling HIS Father as the ONLY One who is good! Who obeyed the Father in heaven to the point of dying. Only doing HIS will and waiting on HIS perfect time (read the story of Lazarus) Giving up HIS life willingly.

No one can take my life from me. I sacrifice it voluntarily. For I have the authority to lay it down when I want to and to take it up again. For this is what my Father has commanded.” John 10: 18

Does this mean we are better than all of those who walked on earth before us?

No! It means that Abba wants to pour out HIS BEST WINE before the coming wedding feast. Best wine means: HIS water is no longer polluted with fleshly ways of thinking.

The sons of G-d will - like Jesus did when He walked on earth, - speak in calm authority. They will depend on the Lord in heaven and will say


They will perform miracles even greater than when Jesus walked on earth. Not loving their lives even unto death. And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, for they loved not their lives even unto death.

Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father. Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.

The first fruits are those who are ready to start harvesting. Wave after wave will be released by HIS hands.

Abba gave me a word in 2006 where He said:

Like the waves of the sea leaving behind the salt on the beach, so will MY army come visible!

Meaning: Where some of us are ready to walk as true sons of G-d (HE is shining through them and they completely being without the flesh) others are just starting this journey.

But waves will come and go and the salt on the beach represents: HIS GLORY POWER will bring fresh water on dry ground and is also the glue to bring new life to the dry bones! His people will come alive and will be united not through own power and strength but by HIS Spirit.

Jew and Gentile, Male and Female Free and Slaves ONE flock with ONE Shepherd.

Who left us ONE word! Torah and Brit'Chadashah

I pray this message will give some clearness to those who only hear Do this, do that, a rule for this, a rule for that[a]; a little here, a little there.”

Tehillim 51 Orthodox Jewish Bible

51 (For the one directing. Mizmor Dovid. When Natan HaNavi confronted him after he went into Bat- Sheva—2Sm. 11:2) Have mercy upon me, O Elohim, according to Thy chesed; according unto the multitude of Thy rachamim blot out my peysha’im (transgressions, rebellions).

2 (4) Wash me thoroughly from mine avon (iniquity), and cleanse me from my chattat (sin).

3 (5) For I acknowledge my peysha’im (transgressions, rebellions); and my chattat (sin) is ever before me.

4 (6) Against Thee, Thee only, have I sinned, and done the rah in Thy sight; that Thou mightest be found just when Thou speakest, and be blameless when Thou judgest.

5 (7) Surely, I was brought forth in avon; and in chet did immi conceive me [i.e., I was a sinner from conception].

6 (8) Surely Thou desirest emes in the inward parts; and in the inmost place Thou shalt make me to know chochmah.

7 (9) Purge me with ezov (hyssop), and I shall be tahor; wash me, and I shall be whiter than sheleg (snow).

8 (10) Make me to hear sasson and simchah; that the atzmot which Thou hast broken may rejoice.

9 (11) Hide Thy face from my chatta’im, and blot out all mine avonot.

10 (12) Create in me a lev tahor, O Elohim; and renew a ruach nekhon (steadfast spirit [i.e., regeneration Ezek 36:26; Yn 3:3,6]) within me.

11 (13) Cast me not away from Thy presence; and take not Thy Ruach Hakodesh from me.

12 (14) Restore unto me the sasson of Thy salvation; and uphold me with a ruach nedivah (a willing spirit; see Jer 31:31-34).

13 (15) Then will I teach poshe’im (transgressors) Thy drakhim; and chatta’im (sinners) shall be converted [have a spiritual turnaround; see Isa 6:10] unto Thee.

14 (16) Save me from damim (bloodguiltiness), O Elohim, Thou Elohei Teshuati; and my leshon shall sing aloud of Thy tzedakah.

15 (17) Adonoi, open Thou my lips; and my mouth shall show forth Thy tehillah (praise).

16 (18) For Thou desirest not zevach (sacrifice); else would I give it; Thou delightest not in olah (burnt offering).

17 (19) The zivkhei Elohim are a ruach nishbarah (broken spirit); a broken and contrite lev, O Elohim, Thou wilt not despise.

18 (20) Do good in Thy good pleasure unto Tziyon; build Thou the chomot Yerushalayim.

19 (21) Then shalt Thou be pleased with zivkhei tzedek (true sacrifices, sacrifices of righteousness), with olah (burnt offering) and whole burnt offering; then shall they offer parim (bulls) upon Thine Mizbe’ach. [

To finish this message, again I make it clear I'm not a Messianic, a Christian, or any label for that matter. Abba once told me "DO NOT LABEL ME!"

I am a candlestick in the hands of the Lord, as Enoch.

** Enoch, who walked with the Lord and whose name means disciplined, initiate, and also called the candlestick of the Lord, shows you, because of how he lived with his G-d, the truth behind the Menorah! I will send a study one of these days about the Menorah.

Being a candlestick attached to the ***foot! Only through dying to self can we be attached to G-D! Which also represents Jesus who, when He walked on earth as a humble servant, always pointed out to THE FATHER and who walked with Him 24/7/365

In His Spirit, we can do the same in Faith by Grace and in His Rest!

Dedicated, trained, disciplined.

𝐈 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞. Not Jews to Christianity, not Christians to become Jewish.

"Therefore, every sofer (Scribe, Torah Teacher, Rabbi) who becomes a talmid ( disciple) of the Malchut HaShomayim is like a person [who is] a Baal Bayit, who takes out of his otzar (treasure), chadashot (new things) and also yeshanot (old things).

Is like the owner of a home who brings out of his storage room

Brit Chadashah both *new things and **old."Torah.

Hear Oh Israel G-d Is One!

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐬 𝐮𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥 :)

D'Vorah Pnina Meijer. 14th of December 2022 Proud To Be Jewish

GUT SHABBES BELOVEDS, ♦🐝D'Vorah Pnina🐝♦ (דבורה) Meijer


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